Hello 2020…

It’s been a long time.

My last post was in 2016 – letting out a rant for a guy that ‘ghosted’ me 😦

Since that last post, a lot of things happened.

In 2017, the company I was working at was acquired by another company. Most of the employees lost their jobs – me included. But don’t worry, we were paid.

In May 2018,  found a new, completely different job but with a competitive salary.

In April 2019, I HAD A STROKE.

It was on April 10, 2019 when it happened. Around 6 AM. I felt okay, I was talking to someone over the phone. When it ended, I couldn’t feel my right hand and I feel very sleepy – then everything happened to me that day was all a blur.

I can’t seem to remember what happened to me during those days in the hospital. What I know is I was confined for 18 days. There was a bleeding on my left part of the brain that caused the stroke.

With my cousin Bong (Apr 20, 2019)

Going home to Cavite (Apr 27, 2019)

The days after I got home from the hospital was difficult for me and my parents. I remember my mom cut my hair, for easy management. It was getting in the way. I also had a few sessions of home physical therapy – it helped me to stand for a few minutes 🙂

I ate my meals in my room

By the time I can transfer from my bed to the wheelchair, I ate in front of the TV

Mother’s Day (May 2019)

I’m not sure if this is Father’s Day (June 2019) or Dad’s Birthday (Oct 2019) 😀

Home PT was expensive but thanks to Carla (my PT), I was able to stand. We decided to get PT from the public hospital. I go every Wednesday and Friday – 10 AM to 11 AM.

I can now stand and walk, but I feel like a baby who’s learning every step. The difference is, a baby is brave to take that step, as for me, I am scared. I am scared to take the step.

I do things slowly… literally. I get frustrated at times, like I can not use scissors, I can not write and sign documents, when walking – I can not turn right away if I forget something. I’m frustrated when my friends have to wait for me when we are outside. I have to ask for water when before I get it on my own. I eat with my left hand. I get tired easily. I don’t work. I am on a prolonged medical leave. And everything stopped.

But no matter how scared and frustrated I get, life moves on. I have to remind myself, I have to move forward no matter how slow I am.

Now I can put lipstick and fix my eyebrows. I bake – with my Dad and brother as my assistants. I attended a wedding in December and I looked good. I do treadmill and stairs exercise slowly in my PT. I celebrated my birthday, Christmas and New Year with my family. I ordered Jamba Juice and met with friends.

I really want to recover.

My brother is in senior high and I want to be able to support him. I want to help my parents. I want to go to Korea and accidentally bump into Hyun Bin. I want to work in Korea and open a snack bar (all Pinoy meriendas), go on a date and eventually get married to Hyun Bin.

I really want to recover.

I have to recover.

I need your help, will you please include me and my family in your prayers? It will mean a lot.